Pissed off

Hey Loving World !

Tonight I am pissed off.

I hooked up on the internet with a friend and i was just blue.

I just couldn’t bother.

I just was flat and tired ans sad.

And she started a crusade, I don’t really know why.

It was simply impossible for me to feel blue, to just want to do nothing about it and be myself and let all my emotions flow out of me like they wanted.

She kept going on and on about it, insisting and it just made me feel more depressed, rejected and bluer.

The worse is that suddenly I started thinking I might have done the same horrible things to people around me I love.

I walked away from the internet.

Pissed off.

I was just so angry my friend couldn’t get it that her behavior was hurting me and that she was way over the red line already.

I felt so disrespected and rejected.

I felt so tired of the crap I was coping I just wished we would never see each other again ever.

I am still thinking it would be a good thing for me never to see her again.

Like never ever.

So why is that little evernt so important I need to write about it ?

Becuse it is juts another one adding to the long list of me being disrecpected and not knoing how o handle it.

And feeling really deeply angry about it. And feeling even worse because still not able to cope with it in a way that is not damaging me.

How do I tell her I don’t need to be Jérusalem, I need a friend that allows me to be me ?

How do I tell her I am a powerhouse of emotions and they need to be able to go and move as they please because IT IS OK FOR ME TO BE SAD.

How do I get her to respect me ?

How do I get rid of the feelings of helplessness and despair I have sometimes ?

May be just by starting writing things down in here… maybe just that.

Thinking C.

Abundance , Day # 2

Hey Beautiful World !

This is my second meditation on Abundance.

Today I am invited to lift up my mind and my consciousness until I can reach the understanding of the origin of all the good in my life.

I reckon this is hard.

It means I need to let go of the gazillion thoughts I have on my mind, the worry about safety at work, the worry and constant calculation about money etc.

Just let go and then raise up to the consciousness of the vibran sparkle of divinity inside of me. Once there I will feel in every celle of my body and experience outside of my limited mind the Abundance of the Universe…

Allright, let’s go meditating !

C -RRH

Abundance, day # 1

Hey Beautiful World !

I am starting a 40 days challenge to reach and raise my Abundance.

I have swimming in sharky waters and I need to reach a safe place.

There are threaats I am facing, like in my work that I haven’t been able to remove despite of all my efforts and all the actions, legal matters, taken. The so-called ” system” covered up for the very bad people, the kind of people that bully, abuse and threaten others.
Therefore the danger is still here at work for me.

So where can I create a safe place ?

Well in all the other areas of my life.

That includes my finances, the place I live in, the body I live in.

I decided to take action.

Each day I am going to practice and meditate about one of the 10 abundance principles written in that beautiful book : The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price.

Today, my meditation starts with : God is lavish…

The first thing I notice is the instant resistance; if God is lavish and I am its expression how come I am not lavish ? How come my bank account goes down and doesn’t stay lavish.
Or maybe my expanding waistline is the way that the lavishness of God is manifesting.

Argh.

It is not there right.

I am scavenging in roots, far away from the truth of that statement.

Let’s raise !

Or maybe…

I have been looking for Abundance outside of me, like a good I could see in a window and suddenly decide to impulse buy.

Then if it is not outside, if it has never been outside of me, in a separated world… where is it ?
It is here, in me.
Abundance has to be within me, already, all the time.
And if it is here in me now, then… it has been there all the time.
All the way long.

So now the question is : how do I get to it, in my inner kingdom ?

How do I unlock the lavish divinity in me ?

Where is it, what is the key ?

C – RRH

Making it conscious

Hello World !

My first step is getting into the habit of : recording.

Previously I have tried many times to leep a food diary and to be truly honest the only time Ie ver made it was a long time ago when a calorie restricted diet got me to lose 15 kg. I didn’t know at that time that I would gain it back with some extras on top.

Today I am taking a different road to get to consciousness of what I fuel my body with : taking pictures of the food I have the intent to eat.

To do so I am going to use boththe light weight easy to stuff in a pocket Ipod.
My first goal is to do this for a week. Publish.
Another week after that would be awesome and then publish every picture again.
And another week to reach the 21 days of the habit forging.

I need to give myself time to decide whether or not eating some comfort food is really what I want for myself.

If this is loving or just stress management or trying to bury deep some powerless or disappointment or anger feelings.

If this is going to fuel, love and heal my body or going to poison it and start rage in my immune system again and ruin my health.

I am sick of misery.

I am done being sad, tired, puffing in the stairs and not being able to put on my fave clothes.

I am making it conscious.

C – RRH.

Swaraj

Hey Beautiful World !

Eventually I am coming out of the darkness.
My weight went up like crazy and my health went down as fast.

Back to square one.

It is ok.

I am not going to let setbacks drive me nuts and make me feel like shit.

Today inspiration is coming from the person that I admire so much I live accordingly ton one of his declaration.

Swaraj is the key word.

Let’s listen to him :

” At the individual level Swaraj is vitally connected with the capacity for dispassionate self-assessment, ceaseless self-purification and growing slef-reliance… . It is Swaraj when we learn to rule ourselves.”

Mahatma Gandhi, Young India, 28 June 1928, p.772

This is where I am standing now, at ground zero.
Time to assess my lifestyle, my habits, my health, my finances, my relationships and my skills.
Time to move on to a better me, a better lifestyle, a better health and a better lifestyle.

Happy Swaraj everyone !

C.

A bit of love

Happens in the kitchen everyday when you feed your body the right food.

Each bit of love fuels up your health and energy.

Grab yourself some daily love three to sux times a day, make each bite count !

C.

A bit of love

Happens in the kitchen everyday when you feed your body the right food.

Each bit of love fuels up your health and energy.

Grab yourself some daily love three to sux times a day, make each bite count !

C.

Cocktail food to slim

Hello World !

Got some celebration coming up ?

Don’t want to get puffed up with pastries and fried food ?

Still want some yummy gorgeous nibbles to enjoy ?

You can do it !

Blend some 4 to 5 dried tomatoes, one zucchini, half a cup of pecan nuts, a cup of aragula and 4 to 5 pitted dates.

Now with that raw pesto you can get creative !

Enjoy yourself !

C.

That nagging ice cream craving

That has been torturing you each time you walked past the freezer or even steeped in the kitchen during the last 24/48 hours…

You would like to :
- kill it
- kill the guy invented ice cream
- kill your husband for being around and stopping you from sneaking into the fridge
- destroy the scales with a baseballbat because they dodn’t tell you the roght story this morning
- kill the skinny bitch you saw walking at the mall smashing a magnum ego caramel, specially because one pf her pin is the size of your arm…

Ok.

Drop the gun/knife/baseball bat /spoon.

Deep breath !

Now walk to your food processor and pour in frozen bananas, goooey pitted dates , just a tiny bit of water, organic carob powder/cinnamon/vanilla powder to flavor and blend !

See that wonderful yummy natural dairy free gluten free preservative free nutrient galore bowl of ice cream you just made ?

Smash it !

Get the love, get the nuturing and the goodness then go out and enjoy your life !

C.

Color your plate healthy

Hey fit world !

Do your green have to be boring and dreaded ?

No !!!!!

Rock that plate of greens with those few tips :

1. Rotate your greens – no don’t rotate the plate with the same good old iceberg lettuce head .
Try new greens : spinach leaves, bokchoy, zucchinis finely sliced, cucumber, aragula, mache… Get creative and next time you shop grabso ething new.

2. Mix them up ! Try spinach and aragula, spinach will be fresh and green on your palate and the aragula has some kick so you can gofor a sweetdressing !

3. Eat ouf ot the box : add some grapes as well as your cherry tomatoes to shake things up in your plate and get into a whole new universe of flavors !

4. Rock your dressing. I know you looooooooove your …………… ( ranch/ caesar/ balsamic/ mustard ) dressing but it is time to treat yourself and your tastebuds to a whole new level of deliciousness ! Try adding some mangoes, tomatoes and herbs – cilantro, parsley, mint or basil – to your food processor and blend yourself something tottaly new and yummy.

5. Plate it like at the Hilton. Yes, don’t hesitate dine in five stars every single day, pick up a wonderful glorious plate and some awesome cutlery and make it special.

Enjoy yourself ! Enjoy your greens ! You deserve the best !

Green Lover C.